now that i have found it, and i want it, all i need to to is take hold and never let it go. if only i could never let it go...
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Name: James Backes Age : 20 Interests : dunno anymore Location :Back home living with my Dad. Occupation : Freelance Chef, employed by Apple Computer Schooling : Graduate of PHHS Graduate of The CCA
Metropolis (DVD)
Lain (DVD)
Princess Mononoke (DVD)
Video Girl Ai (DVD)
Tenchi Muyo (DVD)
Armitage III: Polymatrix (DVD)
Did i lend Armitage to somebody?
Akira: Special Edition (DVD)
To Heart (VCD)
i finally gave these back to allen,
but i want them back, i didnt really watch them XD
i just logged, well, no julie just logged off, and i feel really bad. i asked her if she was busy, the intent to see if she was going to be frustrated with me if i was asking her questions (1st mistake). she wasn't, but she is smarter than i am, so she knows that i only asked that to see if she would get frustrated, which i said, was true (2nd mistake). then admitting it (3rd mistake) i told her i felt bad. (4th mistake) so all that happening i then asked something... what i don't remember.but i asked something, and she then decided to be the grown-up of the two and decided to log off (my mistake # 5). hard to believe that we aren't married ;-). but at least we aren't really fighting, well at least i don't think we are, (i hope not) but what relationship doesn't have it's quirks? nobody's perfect, well, most people aren't perfect, me and julie, well we tip the scale a little bit on the perfect side, as do most of out friends - no offense satayamon, that whole jump in creek attack kinda killed you there ;-) well thats all for this one, just wanted to get that off my chest, which still doesn't feel better, ahh too bad!
oh, what happened to day.... so long and tiring i can only remember a few things.... first out of the gate, i went to the math office during 2nd period and was offered a paying job as a tutor for the Math Mastery program, i accepted and will be doing that from 3:10 till 4:00 daily i believe... not too hard, but hey its money, (i still need to get a real job tho...) i spent some time with jeff after school... we just talked about life in general, and eventually got onto DDR as a topic, i brought up the fact that i had an idea to make a DDR pad kinda like the Arcade for david once, and jeff and i recounted all the features that i had thought of, hopefully if i can get interest and some sponsorship i could begin production on one, i can design it in school for free, just the building that would take the longest time... what else happened? hrrm..... nope cant think of anything, i played a little more MGS today, still cant get my game shark pro to work, i hate running out of ammo in the middle of fire fights... really bothers me! anybody knows how to work a GSPro and a burned copy of a game, let me know.... .that seems like all for now... like i said, not that much to remember.....later all.
well, nothing really interesting happened today.. well nothing extremely interesting however, i did have some fun, started playing Metal Gear Solid on my PlayStation, i also goofed off with my brother when he came over, we were going to see the alignment of the planets and the moon, but the clouds got in the way, such is my life.... lots happening, fanime next week, prom in a month, too many deadlines and no time in which to do them... one thing: i hope prom will be everything that julie wants, or expects. that aside, everything else is going well, no sickness and few pains, 'cept for the occasional pangs or argument with my lady, cant help it, but can try to fix it, which we are. all that aside again, there is much to do on my alternate site, hopefully i can get the whole FTP thing to work with it and move it over to it, just want to get it all working... but that will take some time and some good tweaking...that seems like a good stopping point for now, nothing doing, but life se all later
a poem i "free-wrote", could be about julie, could be about nothing, whatever the case, i like it:
when you look at m what do you know? do you wonder what it is i m thinking? will you question me when i am wrong? will you help me when i fall?
am i what you always wanted? do i make you smile, can you love me when i'm angry, or will you spurn me away?
do you need me when your lonely, do you want me do be around? can you hold me when your angry, can you see it in your heart?
when you hold me close are you thinking about yourself? will you hold someone close when your feeling down?
can it be me?
will it be me?
woah, deep huh? i like it.... all misty and such... but good, well, you always think that you are a good writer, which is why everybody sucks, but thats life.. hope you liked... joy....
I was blogging mad today, i was really grumpy with the world for a little while, seemed like i was doing this all and nobody cared... but such is life... here is a comment i posted to david right after i checked my comments last, kinda funny: a flame war is it!?!? nah, well really i find the comment system on greymatter to be confusing, i like the javascript window with uigui that i use.. its okay tho, just complaining about it... e-body says they want to see updates, and they dont even encourage them after you do... kinda sad... bout the ccs stuff... i''d be happy. only problem... i dont have an FTP site or anything that i could use, i asked my dad about using the server in house, but the upload is way too slow , however it could be done... cause its *nix so there is the whole CGI posibility, okay long coment, most of that should have been in my blog!
yeah i know childish, but it made me feel good.. and yeah, i think its kinda funny... anyway... nothing much else in the update front... got 120 megs of free space to tinker with for my main site for those of you that have seen it, you will agree that it needs it, maybe i will spend some time with david one of these weekends to play around. thats all for now.. keep posting and suggesting! thats all for now.
you know something, everybody is a hypocrite... well certain people are... vince and david for certain, they constantly complain that they go to my blog and i don't update, and then when i do update, what do they do,.... NOTHING, they visit once, and say things like oh, neat, or cool... but do they comment?!?! NO they don't, neither do any of the other people that go to my blog..... its really hard to want to update when people don't even see it!!!! its silly and pointless if you ask me!!
okay rant done... still... if you come here, it would at least be common curtacy (*spelling is wrong i know) to use the perpetual comment thingy on the side... its in the Comments and Questions section, use it.. it will work.. i've posted twice, and amy posted there too! and back to the previous topic, i know some of you *cough* jeff *cough* have been here.. i saw your blog post, and unless you read fark, which you don't seem like the person to do so, you came here and "stole" my post... well... the monty python quiz... either way, leave a post or something!! gosh!!! okay enough rant... thats all for today's post, i have installed counters, but i think i am going to take them down and do something like code my own or something.... could be better looking and easier anyway.... again thats all post comments!!
man David, that sounds kinda like a threat or something, anyway, nothing much going on, lots of cool stuff still pumping... still want the online indicator thingy... sounds like it could be so fun... well thats all, short post.. and nothing really important to announce at this time... be back to read COMMENTS that people post... oh and if you get a chance, please use the comment link that says Click this Link over in the Questions & Comments table, it would be neat if people would tell me that.... thats all for now tho... talk to you all later.....
you know when you finally figure out how to work the whole HTML coding thing, you look arround and wonder, hrm, what can i do now?!!? i've pretty much mastered tables, links are a cinch, and i can do the ocational image, so what else is there?? you ask me?!? javascript is there, as is PHP, GCI, JAR, and a cajolariosm of other acr. that will make you blither like a moron and wonder why people dont look at you in public anymore.... well suffice to say, this place ::looks around:: its chanced a whole lot... new tables, a hacked page archived comment link ::points to the link over there to the right!!! yes its that one!!!:: and even... umm.... umm... COMICS... yeah. comics, many of which kick ass!!! sooooooo if you know a link, or a web-comic that you like, post it!! use the comments or the liberal spreading of e-mail links to get it to me! even if its a gallery, i want more data to fill this page!!!! thats about all for now, keep looking every day or so, again sorry to vince for not posting as often as the SC||TPHGs but hey, i cant be bloggin as often as you guys, not in the habit you kno!? anyway, thanks for commin, and come again soon!!
more and more changes, more to come i hope... its so much fun to do it too... i just wish i knew some more code... like a thingy that would tell people that i was online with AIM, i know there is one out there for ICQ, but i dont know about anything else... thats all for this one... neko keeps complaining that i am not posting too often.. heck this is three for what the past two days... like i said once, it doesnt happen too often, but i do post more than once a day.. its okay, kinda fun too... but i just cant seem to get into a habit of doing it daily, like sataya and jeff and them... i respect them tho.. thats all for now...
okay, semi new look, tweaking the interface a little bit, took for ever to get that table over there to the right, ended up being one of those really simple and annoying things that is easy to fix... figures!!!
one thing that i have noticed is that HTML is much like any other coding language, once you have the basics, many of the harder bits become second nature and nothing hard to figure out... thats about all... just wanted to get the new layout up here.. joy ^_^.. thats all
Metropolis (DVD)
Lain (DVD)
Princess Mononoke (DVD)
Video Girl Ai (DVD)
Tenchi Muyo (DVD)
Armitage III: Polymatrix (DVD)
Akira: Special Edition (DVD)
To Heart (VCD)
i could also be reading:
any of the love hina series
the tenchi muyo manga series
some of my online manga's ^_^
hitchhikers guide (non anime)
dilbert and fox trot collections