now that i have found it, and i want it, all i need to to is take hold and never let it go. if only i could never let it go...
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Name: James Backes Age : 20 Interests : dunno anymore Location :Back home living with my Dad. Occupation : Freelance Chef, employed by Apple Computer Schooling : Graduate of PHHS Graduate of The CCA
Metropolis (DVD)
Lain (DVD)
Princess Mononoke (DVD)
Video Girl Ai (DVD)
Tenchi Muyo (DVD)
Armitage III: Polymatrix (DVD)
Did i lend Armitage to somebody?
Akira: Special Edition (DVD)
To Heart (VCD)
i finally gave these back to allen,
but i want them back, i didnt really watch them XD
yeah, i added some code.. and streamlined some other... the comments are better now... and i have the ability to post a title per blog i hope.... thats all for now... later
bad dreams, and pain all over.. and she tells me she is doing fine?!?! well. a woman has the right to keep to herself what she wants to, i just wish she wouldnt all the time.. i do love her, and i'm one of those guys that isnt sure what love is, but i know that i do love her. i just wish it didnt hurt her so much to try and hold on to. i want it to all stop, and i want her pain to go away.. fall on me if needs be.. i would take all her hate, all her anger, all her fear, and pain, and sorrow. her weaknesses, her faults, it doesent matter, make her perfect at the behest of me. i dont matter, just make her whole again. she says she loves me no matter what, well let me take it all from her, and we will both be happy. but then she would see my sorrow and pain and everything, and she wouldnt be happy... it seems that there is nothing we can do, except take the route of Romeo and Juliet, but there is another way, we just havnt thought of it yet. i hope that we can arrive at a much more suitable, and safer course of action before it gets that far. i love you amy, and i'll admit that to all that read this blog... (all four or five of them) but i dont care what they think, for the most part. i just want you.
she seemed fine until i called her on the phone to try and cheer her up. she was crying, her heart was aching, and she didn't know what to do. i dont know what to do. i want to help, but i dont know how i will ever be able to do it. i love her so much, it hurts when i know nothing i do right now cant help her. she must face it alone. one good thing to come from it, i believe i have found my new anthem for her. written by some of the greatest artists of the 20th century. The Eagles
I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you given me the will to survive
When we're hungry... love will keep us alive
Don't you worry
Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry... love will keep us alive
I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do
Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry... love will keep us alive
I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do
I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you given me the will to survive
When we're hungry... love will keep us alive
When we're hungry... love will keep us alive
When we're hungry... love will keep us alive
if i get around to it dez, i'll put up those requests. thats all for me
Somewhere I Belong
(linkinPark - that chester guy)
When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find /that I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere i belong
its too bad that people dont comment on everything... wouldnt it make more sense to just comment on everything, not just the stuff that applied to what you thought (TSUBASA!!!) but i mean, its more... un.. whats the word i'm lookin for? well i just feel more inclined if i know that i am not the only one here, whats the point of me posting comments, for those of you who would just tell me to post my own comments, i just dont get it... i know i am not a frequent poster kind of blogger, but i would think that the few of you that come by would atleast let me know what you thought about the daily/weekly/monthly blog i just left.... i dunno, thats just me.....
Metropolis (DVD)
Lain (DVD)
Princess Mononoke (DVD)
Video Girl Ai (DVD)
Tenchi Muyo (DVD)
Armitage III: Polymatrix (DVD)
Akira: Special Edition (DVD)
To Heart (VCD)
i could also be reading:
any of the love hina series
the tenchi muyo manga series
some of my online manga's ^_^
hitchhikers guide (non anime)
dilbert and fox trot collections
